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Graduating from medical school without family: a story of strength and survival

Anonymous
Education
June 15, 2025
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Today I graduated from medical school. It should have been one of the happiest days of my life. And in some ways, it was. I earned this moment through sleepless nights, years of sacrifice, and an unshakable drive to serve and heal. I walked across the stage, accepted my diploma, stretched my smile from cheek to cheek, and looked directly at the camera. But behind that smile, I carried something invisible.

I stood alone.

There were no family members waiting to embrace me. No celebratory photos with proud parents. No emotional reunions. Just me — trying to hold both the pride and the ache at the same time.

What many people don’t see in moments like these is that not every medical student has a loving support system. Some of us have had to build our futures while shielding ourselves from our pasts. I come from a family defined not by love, but by chaos. My childhood was shaped by emotional turmoil, unchecked mental illness on all fronts, substance use, and a complete denial of my needs. A family that—more often than I care to describe—compelled me to run into the woods to bawl my eyes out. Or drive into an empty parking lot alone, prepared to give my tear ducts a run for their money. Or sit on the couch, staring at the wall, completely dissociating from the fact that we’re on hour seven (and counting) of them screaming that I am the source of all their problems, among other compelling arguments. There is more I could describe about my early life, but I fear that you get the point.

When I spoke up, I was silenced. When I crossed some sort of line, I was humiliated. When I set boundaries, I was manipulated. When I distanced myself, I was branded as cruel and ungrateful. Hateful. Broken.

Estrangement was not a rash decision. It was the final, painful step in a long history of trying — hoping — to be seen, heard, and treated with basic respect. I didn’t estrange myself from my family to be dramatic or rebellious. I did it because remaining connected meant continuing to be hurt.

Even now, from a distance, the pattern continues. They follow my life online, surveil public posts about my pursuit of success, and confront me for not inviting them along on my journey — twisting the narrative to suit their version of reality. It’s not love — it’s manipulation. It’s not remorse — it’s control. The gaslighting, the rewriting of history, the refusal to acknowledge their role — these are the same behaviors I walked away from in the first place, aren’t they?

And yet, on days like this, the grief is still real. I don’t just mourn the people who aren’t here — I mourn the people they should have been. My fantasy. The family I imagine in my mind. The same one I see all around me, hugging other graduates, holding flowers, crying tears of pride. The grief I am feeling isn’t weakness — it’s evidence of how deeply I longed to be seen in a way that felt safe and unconditional. And how deeply I still do.

Yes, at times I feel jealous. Actually — very often. Sometimes I feel like I was handed a life with pieces missing. And the voice creeps in — What if I’m wrong? What if I’m the problem? But those aren’t signs of guilt. They’re scars. They’re the lingering voices of my past.

So yes, today, I stood alone. But I stood honest. I stood whole. I stood sound in my decisions. I stood free.

Seldom do we talk about this in our pursuit of medicine — about the invisible emotional labor some of us carry into every lecture hall, every call shift, every white coat ceremony, every celebration. We find joy in resilience, but rarely ask what it costs. We assume support in our peers, but forget that for many of us, success happened despite our families, not because of them.

This letter is for you, who pursued this profession, who is walking across that stage alone, who’s sitting in call rooms, working holiday shifts, or returning to empty apartments wondering why joy feels so complicated. Wondering if this is all worth it.

You’re not broken. You’re not alone.

You are someone who got hurt — and still chose to become a healer.

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And that is certainly something to be proud of.

The author is an anonymous physician.

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