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When the diagnosis is personal: What my mother’s Alzheimer’s taught me about healing

Pearl Jones, MD
Conditions
June 12, 2025
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I’ve spent my career as a neurologist diagnosing and managing neurodegenerative diseases. I’ve counseled families through heartbreaking prognoses, navigated complex care plans, and educated patients about conditions like Alzheimer’s disease. I thought I understood what it meant to live with a memory disorder, until my mother became my most challenging, most personal patient.

Her diagnosis came gradually, as these things often do. First, it was the missed appointments and forgotten dates. Then came the misplaced words, the confusion that couldn’t be brushed off as normal aging. As a physician, I recognized the signs all too well. But as a daughter, I hesitated. I didn’t want to believe it.

When cognitive testing and an MRI confirmed the diagnosis, the reality settled in. My mother, once a fiercely independent woman who raised two children while working full time, was now facing a disease I’d spent years helping others understand. Suddenly, I wasn’t her neurologist. I was her caregiver, her advocate, and most painfully, her daughter watching her fade.

The clinical knowledge I carried gave me a framework, but it did not prepare me for the emotional weight of watching someone I love lose parts of herself day by day. Her decline has not been linear. I knew to expect difficult moments, but nothing can blunt the sting of watching this decline.

My mother’s diagnosis of Alzheimer’s has opened my eyes to the realities of our health care system. Despite my professional network and knowledge, arranging services like home health and physical therapy has been frustratingly complex. Forms get lost. Calls go unanswered. Services are delayed or denied. I can’t help but wonder: If this is hard for me, a neurologist who knows the system, how impossible must it feel for others?

Getting her to in-person appointments is a logistical and emotional hurdle. Her mobility is declining. I’ve requested telehealth options, but her primary physician insists on in-office visits. Each one feels like a battleground — not just the physical toll of getting her there, but the mental stress of watching her look confused in sterile waiting rooms.

Caregiving has infiltrated every part of our lives. It’s not just the time, it’s the mental exhaustion, the late-night worry, the juggling of schedules, the constant hypervigilance. There are no clean boundaries. The guilt of wondering if I’m doing enough is unrelenting.

But amid the heartbreak, my mother has taught me something that medical school never could. She’s teaching me about presence. About compassion that exists outside of clinical checklists. About the quiet victories such as seeing her beautiful smile, the joy of a favorite song, the peace of holding her hand in silence.

She has reminded me that healing isn’t always curing. Sometimes it’s bearing witness. It’s showing up, even when the person you’re caring for may not know who you are. It’s fighting for dignity in a system that often feels impersonal and inaccessible.

This experience has profoundly changed the way I practice medicine. I now see every caregiver with new eyes. I ask different questions. I listen longer. I recognize the invisible labor they carry.

My mother may not remember the neurologist I am, but I will never forget the daughter she helped me become.

Pearl Jones is a neurologist.

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