I am sitting at my desk today, a typical clinic “good day.” My EMR is open. I have several active messages from my secretary, several messages from patients, appointment requests, pending consult requests, medication refill requests, insurance requests, hospital emails, medical students, medical student schedule change, an email from a resident, several hospital emails, and a hospital schedule email, all needing my attention at the same time. And this is …

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I recently attended a very large professional conference. In a rush to make it everywhere and yet feed myself, I was running to get breakfast before the sessions and spilled the majority of this much-desired coffee all over my shirt. Here I was, standing with an impressive, unmistakable, impossible-to-hide giant stain of dark liquid spreading across the front of my solid blue shirt and sleeve with nothing to hide it.

It …

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Administrative violence in medicine is often understood as harm to patients due to systemic issues; however, administrative violence in medicine is also a process used to inflict harm on physicians, destabilizing the medical field on both systemic and individual levels. While much attention is given to how institutions and governments perpetuate administrative violence, it can also be enacted by individuals toward individual physicians with great harm, particularly by other physicians …

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As physicians, we all know what “badness” is in medicine. “Badness” is a word many physicians use to convey a painful, complicated, tragic, or adverse clinical experience. Badness is usually some bad, particularly emotional “bad.” Due to medical training most physicians struggle to describe their emotions or even allow themselves to acknowledge emotions, especially around distressing patient cases. The word “badness” frequently conveys to others how awful the event was, …

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This article may be emotionally distressing and triggering for some readers. Please speak with your therapist, physician or support if you are in distress or local crisis line or the ER.

February: a time when the stores are bursting with pink and red, marketing pitches for gifts and “romantic” dates for your special Valentine.

For many, February is a heavy month, reminding them of the contradiction they have lived or continue living …

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