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Schizophrenia: They are on an island of their own

Debbie Moore-Black, RN
Conditions
December 18, 2020
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I knocked on his door. It was 8:30 pm—medication time.

Jerome slowly opened his door. He was easily over 6 feet tall. Towering over my 4′ 11.5″ self. Naked. Eye to eye with his penis.

He chanted, “You ain’t a bitch. You ain’t a ho … you my wife.”

OK Jerome, take your medicine.

I’ve entered a new dimension of nursing.

After 30 plus years as an ICU nurse, I thought I’d ride out behavioral health until my retirement in one year. I thought it would be easy.
What I didn’t realize was that we have a most complicated mind. All of us.

I smiled during my interview. I told them what they wanted to hear. And I was in.

Day after day. This was the psychotic unit: psychotic, schizophrenic, bipolar, all of the above. Medication was sometimes our only hope.
It’s cold outside. Wintertime. The homeless know what to say. On the streets, our hospital, our behavioral health unit is like the Hilton.

New scrubs, private rooms, breakfast, lunch, dinner, and snacks. A shower. And medications to calm you down, to help you sleep, to make those voices in your head disappear for a moment. The voices that say kill, kill, kill. The voices that tell you you’re no good. Cut yourself deeper, faster. Jump off the bridge, run into traffic. Anything to make the voices go away.

Marlene is 52. She likes methamphetamines. She has multiple husbands, and she’s pregnant with the baby Jesus. And screams a blood-chilling scream in the middle of the night.

We rush to her side. She bangs her head repeatedly against the wall. It’s hard to deescalate a psychotic. Medication is your only friend. Haldol, Zyprexa, Ativan, Thorazine. Take your pick.

Our heroes are public safety. We push a button or call the number stat, and they are there. All of them rush to our side to protect us. This is not a prison. This is a Behavioral health unit. And each day, we say a prayer that there won’t be violence. That there won’t be an assault. That we won’t have to put someone in seclusion. That we aren’t forced to use 4-point restraints.

These are the misfits. The homeless. The non-compliants. They know when it’s cold outside. They can no longer cope. We are their friend. Their protector.

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Schizophrenia. A strange and exotic disease. They are on an island of their own.

What have I gotten myself into?

Debbie Moore-Black is a nurse who blogs at Do Not Resuscitate.

Image credit: Shutterstock.com

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