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The unseen cost of detachment in radiology

Dr. Yesu Raju
Physician
July 7, 2025
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That was one of my uneventful night duties—until early morning. As usual, I had a hectic on-call day, where I barely got half an hour for dinner—which we consider routine. Around 3 a.m., I received a request for an abdominal CT scan for a middle-aged male patient with abdominal pain. The surgeons were suspecting mesenteric ischemia—blockage in abdominal vessels, which can be life-threatening.

I glanced through the scan, trying to open my eyes wider—no free air, no vessel thrombosis, no bowel dilatation. Just mild free fluid—a very non-specific finding. I concluded there was no significant abnormality. I went to sleep, setting my mobile phone volume to maximum, just in case.

The surgeon called for the report. I told her it was unremarkable. I got two more calls within ten minutes. She gently but firmly insisted, “The patient is very sick. I just want to confirm the report.” I remember feeling a flicker of irritation. I repeated that the scan showed no significant abnormality.

The patient was managed conservatively through the night and was about to be referred to another centre. But before transfer, the surgical team insisted on a final review. My senior took a look at the scan. Immediately, he identified what I had missed: a long segment of gangrenous small bowel. I had focused too narrowly and failed to see what was right in front of me.

The patient was rushed to surgery. The gangrene was confirmed, and the operation was completed. Thankfully, the patient survived—relieving me of half the guilt I had already begun to carry.

As I reflected, I realised how magical and paradoxical my field of medicine is. I rarely see the pain the patient is experiencing, the fear in relatives’ eyes, or their unanswered questions. I see the 2D images on the screen—slices of the body with a few identifiers: name, age, sex, and a hospital number. In the darkness of my reporting room, I’m trained to search for patterns—patterns that don’t scream in pain or feel like a cold, trembling hand.

Some days, it feels like magic—diagnosing a life-threatening condition in seconds when clinicians remain uncertain.

Other days, it feels like cognitive dissonance. We are trained to be fast, efficient, and productive. For us, blood is white and air is black. The luxury of emotional detachment we enjoy comes with a cost—the risk of ethical detachment.

Sometimes, the machine becomes a barrier between clinical reality and human experience. This disconnection becomes most apparent when we’re at our lowest—during personal struggles, sleep deprivation, hostile environments, or after harsh reprimands. The screen no longer feels like a diagnostic window, but a burden. We become tempted to simply “clear the list.” That’s a temptation every radiologist faces at some point.

In scenarios where the clinical suspicion is high but the scan appears normal—such as a patient with severe abdominal pain—our clinical colleagues may sometimes perceive us as emotionally detached. I don’t blame them. From their perspective, they’re beside the patient, hearing the groans and witnessing the decline. From ours, we’re staring at a grayscale image that doesn’t always align with the urgency they feel.

Occasionally, a call from a clinical colleague or a persistent relative—or a cry from a patient on the scan table—pierces this barrier. It reminds us that we are not dealing with images, but with people—often vulnerable, afraid, and waiting.

I’m not writing this to criticise my profession. This is to remind myself—and perhaps others—that behind every scan lies a patient, a family, and a story. Even when detachment tempts us, it is not weakness to feel. It is responsibility. And unlike our clinical colleagues who regularly interact with patients, we radiologists must actively cultivate the habit of imagining the person behind the screen.

Perhaps this is the radiologist’s paradox: We work in oblivion. We see without actually seeing the patient. We are rarely recognized. Yet our words carry profound meaning—sometimes even the decision between life and death. It’s ironic that—in a profession defined by vision—how easy it is to see the patterns and pathologies and not the people behind them.

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Being a radiologist is not a luxury of distance, but a profound responsibility that must remain rooted in humanity.

I imagine that patient, now walking again, never knowing how close he came to being lost in the shadows. He will never know my name. And perhaps that is as it should be. But he taught me the lesson—that within the shades of grey of radiology, I should bring my own color—to see the emotion and the people beyond the screen.

Yesu Raju is a radiology resident in India.

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