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When doing “nothing” really matters

Marianne Haughey, MD
Physician
March 16, 2018
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She came up to me and said, “You saved my life.” I remember meeting this woman while I was walking my dog in a woody park near my home and I was taken aback.  She didn’t look like someone who should be dead; she was young and vibrant and out for a hike. Then she added details.  She had an ectopic pregnancy. She came to the ED in shock. She was frightened.  She was right- I did take care of her.  I remembered her coming in with nearly no blood pressure, with low belly pain and a positive pregnancy test.  In the days before ultrasound, this was enough for me to advocate for her to go to the OR with OB.  They took her, and we were right, she had a ruptured ectopic. And clearly, she had lived.

So as it came back, I then remembered and said, “I did nothing.” Meaning I did nothing unusual.  Two large bore IVs, some intense phone calls, the pregnancy test, a physical and I remember standing by her head and whispering in her ear nearly the whole time to explain everything.  Because she was scared.  And this was the worst day of her life, and it was the right thing to do.

We say that a lot, my friends and I.  We have a habit of meeting people on the worst days, or nearly the worst days of their lives in the Emergency Department.  We stand there, shoulder to shoulder and just do the right thing. We give them the moments of care and humanity that mean so much at those horrible times.  But to us, it is a day at work.  It is what we do.  And because we make such a difference often each day, we are dulled to the impact.  And so, we say “It was nothing.”

Last week I had the worst day of my life.  My parents’ home went on fire and the second floor, where my brother lived was destroyed. My brother was home and died in the fire.  My parents were away on vacation, and as news trucks and fire engines filled the entire block with ambulances and police cars, it fell to me to call them and tell them their only son had been killed.  It fell to me to find my sister as she walked from where she had been able to park the car and have her collapse and keen outside of the camera shots of the news cameras.  It was, by far, the worst day I ever had.

Through this all, two of my brother’s friends, both off duty from NYPD, were by my side.  They flanked me as I spoke to the police (someone died, so the area was a crime scene), the arson investigators (they were able to tell me the fire started from an electrical short in an extension cord) and the medical examiner who came to the scene.  All of these people were incredibly kind to me.  All of these fine first responders were stalwarts of strength. I wanted, needed to see the inside of the house.  I needed to see where he had died, which had been burned to charcoal beams.  There was no light, water from the fire hoses was dripping and puddling everywhere. There were holes in the floor of the second floor.  The policemen at the scene took flashlights and lanterns and took my sister and myself around our childhood home safely.  In the dark, dripping silence at 1 a.m. we walked around the basement, gathering small things important to our parents, we walked around the first floor doing the same, and they guided us up the stairs to see where our brother had perished.  When we thanked them when they came to the wake for my brother, they insisted they were doing nothing.

The next day forty people friends and families gathered to clean out the front of the house so that when my parents returned they did not have to see the fire’s destruction as their first view of their home of the last thirty-seven years.  Cousins just showed up.  When I went to the house at 10:30, where we planned on meeting at 11 a.m. I already found a crowd of his friends working hard, with power tools boarding up the windows that had been blasted open by flames, cleaning and gathering debris.  When I thanked them, they said they said, “But it was nothing.”

The next day when we brought my parents to the house, we found the ceiling bulging with water that had collected creating a dangerous setting.  Rather than having my father stab the ceiling with a kitchen carving knife as he first wanted I called a friend from long ago.  He lived not far and has been a fireman for about 30 years.  He has risen to a rank that now mostly has him pointing out directions from outside the burning house, but he knows his way around the inside of a burned house as well.  I told him the issue, and He said, “I’ll be there in ten minutes.”  We probably had not spoken in at least a year.  But he was in my home in full gear, with all he needed to help keep that spot safe, taking down half the ceiling in the process.  When I thanked him, he said, “but it was nothing.”

So, I’m reflecting on “nothing.”  Nothing seems like a lot more than I thought before this horrible day.  All of those people in those acts of nothing helped pick me up from desperate depths.  I leaned on them, and they held me up.  They kept my family safe.  They allowed me my pain and helped me to keep going.  I can’t thank them enough for all their “nothings.” I realize that their “nothing” really means “Nothing more than decent people would do to help someone in great need.” or maybe “Nothing more than touch your soul when it is truly exposed and help it to heal with the love of humanity.”

So next time when someone thanks me, rather than saying “It was nothing,” I might just say “I’m glad I was able to help.”

Dedicated to the memory of John James Haughey, Jr. 4/27/69- 2/9/18. 

Marianne Haughey is an emergency physician. This article originally appeared in FemInEm.

Image credit: Shutterstock.com

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