“The ordinary response to atrocities is to banish them from consciousness. Certain violations of the social compact are too terrible to utter out loud: this is the meaning of the word unspeakable. Trauma survivors want to forget, observers want to forget, and society as a whole wants to forget. It is too painful to do otherwise. We push trauma away and it rears up in other ways: Atrocities, however, …
Why we deny trauma and blame survivors
In July, I wrote about the importance of end-of-life planning (EOL). Shortly after, I read a study that examined physicians’ EOL plans with advanced cancer and Alzheimer’s disease (stage unspecified). The study encompassed nations with different forms of aid in dying, from the U.S., where a terminal coma is the only option most states allow, to Belgium, where physician-assisted dying (PAD) and euthanasia are available. Although the term suicide …
Physicians’ end-of-life choices: a surprising study
The cabin was quiet in that familiar, suspended way airplanes always are with a steady engine hum, passengers absorbed in movies, sleep, and anticipation with the intermittent crying child. It was an ordinary flight. Until it wasn’t. The overhead speaker crackled without warning. “If there is a doctor on board, please identify yourself.”
The voice was calm. The effect was not. Just a row behind me, a child no more than …
In-flight medical emergencies: Are planes prepared?
For the past several decades, Western spiritual culture has been profoundly shaped by the rebranding of Buddhist contemplative practices (mindfulness, presence, and the exaltation of “the now”). As a psychiatrist, I have witnessed the arrival of this movement inside the consultation room. Patients arrive quoting teachers, apps, and books urging them to stay present, to watch their breath, to release attachment to the future or past. Many have tried, often …
Why mindfulness fails to cure existential anxiety
A recent Johns Hopkins study has reignited that debate. The research documents rapid growth in concierge and direct primary care practices and warns that these models may worsen access to care.
That framing feels intuitive. It is also incomplete.
It assumes that traditional primary care access was functioning before physicians began moving into fee-based models. It was not.
Long before concierge and direct primary care gained traction, primary care access had already …
Concierge medicine access: Is it really the problem?
I wanted to be at the top. Clinical ladder 4 was the top. You couldn’t get any higher achievement as an ICU nurse than this.
There were many requirements to obtain this:
I checked all the boxes, every year. It was hard work. And tiresome. The compensation for …
Emotional abuse recognition: a nurse’s story
When we think of peacekeeping missions, images of armored vehicles and blue helmets often dominate the narrative. Rarely do we picture the quiet, relentless battle fought within the walls of a makeshift hospital, where saving lives becomes an act of defiance against chaos. Yet, in Abyei, Sudan, that was our reality. We arrived expecting logistical challenges, but nothing prepared us for the disarray that greeted us at the UN Level …
Peacekeeping medicine: Saving lives in Sudan’s forgotten hospital
At the height of the COVID-19 surge, many hospital leaders faced moments they will never forget. Beds were nearly full. Staff were exhausted. Supplies that once felt routine suddenly became scarce. In those moments, decisions had to be made quickly, often based on experience, instinct, and whatever information was available at the time.
We like to believe that good leadership means trusting our gut. In clinical medicine, intuition matters. Years of …
The role of operations research in health care crisis management
This is not a detailed story like the ones I usually write. It’s just a little breeze of warmth that touched my soul and heart, and I wanted to share it with you.
I had been so overwhelmed over the past weeks, taking care of so many patients for months and staying in a place where there was no one to listen to me. In fact, I was the only listener …
The emotional toll of leaving patients behind
With the holiday season upon us, joy, warmth, and delicious food fill our homes. While we enjoy those festival meals, our own “life-highway” vessels quietly shoulder the burden of all the fats and sugars we consume. Alongside the happiness of the season comes an overlooked strain on our arteries. What strikes me even more, as a vascular specialist, is a recent study from the University Hospital at Downstate in …
Peripheral artery disease prevention: Saving limbs and lives
In the fast-paced world of reproductive endocrinology and infertility (REI), even seasoned clinicians from other specialties can find themselves lost in the weeds of embryo reports. While most of us recall the basics of mitosis and meiosis from medical school, the clinical nuances of embryo morphology and grading are often not taught until fellowship.
Understanding these metrics is essential for informed decision-making. Whether you are an OB/GYN managing patient expectations or …
A clinician’s guide to embryo grading in IVF
I walked out of my physician’s office steady and clear in my decision to transfer my care. I didn’t accuse her of anything. I didn’t raise my voice. I simply informed her that I would be transitioning to another clinician within the same concierge program.
She immediately assumed I was leaving for financial reasons and suggested physicians to see outside the system. When I clarified that her administrator had already approved …
Why women’s symptoms are dismissed in medicine
As a physician-psychiatrist, I have watched the rise of GLP-1 medications (Ozempic, Wegovy, Mounjaro, Zepbound) with genuine admiration. They are transforming metabolic health, reducing cardiovascular risk, and offering hope to patients who have struggled for decades. For many, these medications are lifesaving.
But alongside the excitement, I’m witnessing something rarely discussed: a change in personality and affect, especially at higher doses.
This pattern reminds me of the early days of SSRIs. When …
GLP-1 psychological side effects: a psychiatrist’s view
Most people assume that pain and illness are caused only by injury or disease. If your back hurts, it must be damaged; abdominal pain must come only from inflammation, infection, or tumor. Most physicians learn this in medical school, as I did. But treatment based on this assumption often fails to provide relief for persistent pain, leaving millions of patients and countless well-intentioned physicians frustrated and in despair. The result …
Emotional awareness and expression therapy explained
An excerpt from My Eight Year Kidney Stone Journey.
In the fifth year of my kidney stone battle, after yet another painful episode, I reached a turning point. I remember recovering at home, sipping the bland herbal tea I had switched to (since I was even worried regular tea might have too much oxalate), and thinking, there must be something else out there that I can try. I refused to …
Lemon juice for kidney stones: Does it work?
Three weeks after giving birth, you are hit with a blinding headache and fading vision. The next available appointment with your doctor is two weeks away. You finally go to your doctor, and your blood pressure has already reached a dangerous level without you even realizing.
The solution is straightforward. A home blood pressure monitor costs between $69 and $169. Yet most insurers will not cover it because many states do …
Why insurance must cover home blood pressure monitors
Anesthesia and sedation in dental patients has come under scrutiny in recent years, fueled in part by high-profile tragedies, such as the deaths of six-year-old Caleb in 2015, cardiologist Dr. Henry Patel in 2020, and the five media-reported deaths in 2025. These incidents serve as a stark reminder that the current landscape of dental sedation practices is fraught with inconsistencies and a lack of oversight, which can have devastating consequences …
The risks of the single-provider dental sedation model
There is a stillness in the waiting room,
not exactly silence,
but a quiet that settles over chairs,
minds diverted elsewhere.
Here, women sit in chairs
with their thoughts
floating in opposing directions,
pretending to read magazines,
while their minds
wander hallways
they would rather not travel.
My name is called softly,
and my heart skips a beat,
the time has come.
I follow the routine,
changing from street clothes
into bare arms and a borrowed gown
that never seems to fit properly.
I take a deep breath,
trying …
The quiet bravery of breast cancer screening
With an overwhelming role of automation in modern health care industry, the concept of medical ethics seems to be fading away in the waves of murky economic profiting from value-based bundles meant for pure revenue generation. The commercialized approach towards practice of medicine requires readdressing the core ethical framework which lies at the hearth of patient-doctor relationship. Being innate and inextricable part of clinical medicine, ethical responsibility is meant for …
How automation threatens medical ethics principles
With the onset of fall and winter season, my clinic in the Bronx braces for a flood of worried parents. A toddler coming in with itchy, watery eyes and a runny nose becomes a far too common sight. Parents share of their battles against poorly ventilated apartments, mould and cockroach infestations, housing insecurities; adding to this, the threat of RSV, flu, and COVID-19 exposures in day care and school causes …
When to test for pediatric seasonal allergies
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