“I want to be white,” he said.
I didn’t know how to respond.
I was quiet.
He was serious, waiting for my reply.
He was only 8 years old, in the hospital with an asthma flare-up.
I had asked him, “What do you want to be when you grow up?”
I wished I hadn’t.
I’ve thought a lot about his answer in the …
Why racism in health care is still an emergency
Physicians are healers; they were not meant to be hunted. Yet in modern America, the very system that once revered physicians has turned against them, weaponizing regulations and laws into weapons and transforming healers into criminals. The Controlled Substances Act, health care fraud statutes, and a labyrinth of federal regulations have ensnared countless physicians in a trap of legal peril, branding them as fraudsters when their only crime was dedication …
Criminalizing care: How the system turned on physicians
Every day, over a million doctors across the nation rise with a singular, noble purpose: to heal and to help. This isn’t a calling pursued for recognition or praise—it’s a commitment rooted in a deep, unwavering care for others. From family physicians who anchor communities to pediatricians who safeguard our children, from surgeons who wield precision in the operating room to specialists unraveling the toughest medical enigmas, these …
A tribute to the unsung heroes of medicine
In his deluge of executive orders, Trump once again is focusing on health care cost transparency.
Efforts to open the lock on health care costs began in 2019 under the Trump administration with mandated publication of hospital price lists, called chargemasters. These price lists are arbitrary, as they have no relation to the contracted …
How price transparency fails patients and what insurers must reveal next
In his book Cross Pollinations: The Marriage of Science and Poetry, Nabhan illustrates the interconnection between thinking across varied fields and how one specifically might inform the other. He is by no means the first or only thinker to harness looking across disciplines. This approach has certainly also informed the world of psychotherapy. The unifying glue, however, is time and space for reflection, to consider leisurely, to let the …
Why systemic thinking can transform both therapy and medicine
They never said it outright. Not at first.
They didn’t have to.
I was a physician at the edge of the Republic, serving those the system had long since forgotten. When the last doctors left, I remained. I healed. I endured. I became necessary.
And for that, the system turned.
Not with conviction, but suspicion.
Not with verdict, but process.
How the system hunts physicians who refuse to kneel
When I first started my career in medicine, CT scans and MRIs were nonexistent. Scientific advancements and technology facilitated the development of these and many other diagnostic tools.
These changes have enhanced medical care, enabling physicians to diagnose and treat patients more effectively. The integration of computers has played a crucial role in this advancement by ensuring better continuity of care, whether at home or in the hospital, through improved communication …
The business of medicine: How hospitals are putting profits over patients
“It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society.”
– Jiddu Krishnamurti
The American medical system is ill, and physicians are among its sickest patients. As a dual-boarded physician, an assistant professor of family medicine, and someone who has walked the halls of both academia and clinical practice, I have witnessed firsthand the symptoms of this systemic disease. It is a sickness that manifests in exhaustion, …
The disease of modern medicine: How a sick system is failing physicians
Last night when I came to work most of the beds in our 31-bed emergency department (ED) were full. There were more than 20 patients either in the waiting room proper or in the chairs that serve as “rooms” behind the triage area.
Much of the problem was the fact that we were boarding patients who were waiting on inpatient beds, psychiatric admissions, or transfer to higher levels of care elsewhere. …
The emergency department crisis: Why patient boarding is dangerous
Many physicians are feeling profoundly betrayed right now.
We dedicated our lives to medicine, science, and healing. We sacrificed. We put our patients first, often at great personal cost.
The current political and public health landscape makes many of us feel disregarded, unheard, and deeply disrespected.
Health care, and we as physicians, feel under siege.
Public health policies are shifting in ways …
Physicians are feeling betrayed. How do we protect our peace when health care is under siege?
I have felt anxious for most of my life.
Born into a poor family, my main goal has always been to become independent enough to support myself without needing to ask anyone for money to meet my basic necessities.
I witnessed my father frequently asking others for help whenever he faced significant challenges that his limited salary could not cover. For instance, he would reach out to people when it came time …
How embracing uncertainty changed my life
Until now, when a lawsuit is frivolous, once a doctor who is the defendant prevails, the case concludes. However, there is a next step. Whether it is taken depends on this doctor.
Prevailing means there is 95 percent confidence that the lawsuit is frivolous. Not every frivolous lawsuit is malicious; however, every malicious lawsuit is frivolous. Malice is actionable.
As of now, malicious prosecution cases are difficult and expensive to prove because …
This story is dedicated to all my female friends in medicine.
Didi does not love her job. What started as a noble purpose of helping people made her feel as though she has become a glorified customer service representative. She focuses on her Hippocratic oath, all right. She’s an internist in her 30s, seeing about fifteen to twenty patients per day, and she’s fed up with the sense of disrespect.
It does …
The hidden bias young female physicians face every day
Just imagine when you felt hurt or betrayed by a colleague, patient, staff member, friend, or family member. Now, picture life if you could somehow free yourself of that hurt, pain, or discomfort. This article will discuss the concept of forgiveness and how it applies to our medical practice.
Examples of forgiveness
A white male racist burned down a predominantly African American church. The arsonist was convicted and sentenced to prison. He …
The power of forgiveness: How letting go transforms your life
Practicing medicine is an incredible privilege. Our rigorous training allows us to combine science and compassion to heal and support patients through both challenging and healthy times. However, this privilege often comes with significant challenges, such as burnout and other struggles. Many doctors feel burdened by the time spent on electronic health records, drowning in documentation for nearly six hours …
Beyond resilience: Confronting physician burnout as a chronic condition
I’ve witnessed what’s possible when we rethink pain management. By implementing a multimodal assessment approach at my hospital, I achieved a 50 percent reduction in inpatient opioid use, measured in morphine milligram equivalents (MMEs). The Numeric Pain Scale (NPS)—that 0-10 score we’ve leaned on too much—drives overuse when it’s the only guide, and with the U.S. consuming 80 percent of the world’s opioids as just 4.4 percent of its population, …
Cutting opioid use in half: a hospital’s pain management breakthrough
Cancer is a disease that demands long-term, resource-intensive treatment, posing an especially heavy burden in low- and middle-income countries (LMICs). In nations like India, where a significant portion of the population comprises daily wage earners, farmers, and small shop owners living in villages, the challenges are even more pronounced. For these individuals, a cancer diagnosis can feel like a death sentence—not just due to the disease itself but because of …
Why cancer care remains inaccessible for India’s poor
Long ago, before I started practicing medicine, I worked in the retail sector. I was 15 years old when I earned my first real paycheck. Surely, I worked other odd and end jobs before that first “real job.” I mowed neighborhood lawns, shoveled snow off neighbors’ driveways, delivered newspapers—anything I could do to make a dollar or two. But those odd jobs were not “real jobs” with tangible or steady …
From retail to medicine: a doctor’s journey through burnout and bureaucracy
If I were to bet that the majority of physicians are familiar with that pit in their stomach—that sinking feeling of dread that comes with recognizing things aren’t going well—I’d probably win that bet. Contrary to collective wisdom, Wu (2000) first formalized recognition that doctors involved in critical incidents need help too. Now, twenty-five years later, doctors are still held to a standard that eschews the idea of making mistakes. …
Confronting the silent struggle: Physicians and the emotional toll of medical errors
I had two bunnies over a year ago. Unfortunately, I didn’t have a proper environment for them, just a large cage in the courtyard. During the day, they would roam freely, and I would lock them in the cage at night for their safety.
They were very dear to me. I talked to them, cuddled them, and let them eat whatever I ate. They loved eating from my hands. …
When caring for pets becomes a life lesson
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